DVD 3 - LOSS SERIES 2002

This series of video work relates to the theme of loss. During the year of creating the “Loss Series”, I was myself occupying a highly charged emotional space. In “Loss Series”, the camera is turned on me, using my emotional body as a catalyst for the narrative of the work. The ”Loss Series” experiments with varying techniques for translating emotions and vulnerabilities to video, my own, establishing a connection to the ‘present moment’ in my work.

In order to capture the present moment, my objective was to explore the immediacy of digital video to seize ‘emotional moments’ as I was experiencing them. The digital medium with its portability and real-time capabilities allows the artist/film-maker to become truly responsive to an environment, to a moment. During the development of the “Loss Series”, I kept my computer and camera with me at all times, to document my emotional state, almost as a stream of conscious video diary. With this rigorous concentration on the evolving process of documenting, I hoped to gain a deeper understanding of my own creative process, and aimed to create work from intensely emotional moments. I hoped being comfortable in my creative process would enable a more immediate creative translation of embodied sensations and experiences into images. Each piece is a visual and sonic response to my own trauma; from anger, frustration, sadness, loneliness and fear. These pieces are not meant to be seen consecutively. Each exists on its own.These video pieces are very much focused on process. Some are created in a couple of hours; some are created over a couple of months. All are created in direct response to an emotional situation. Each video is approached very intuitively, much like I would approach a painting, feeding into it, scraping it back, trashing it, and starting again. They are created with a sense of urgency and are quite raw. In some ways I look at them like ‘stream of conscious’ video pieces, capturing moments in time. I look at this body of work I have produced as developmental work that documents a time. Although these pieces are linear, they generally have no beginning or end – they are deliberately incomplete and fragmentary. They explore emotional narratives, hoping to engage the viewer in emotional response. The works wait for the viewer to distinguish a pattern, rather than a pattern of information being imposed upon the viewer.Every video on this reel was created on my laptop. Each was shot with digital video and each video was self funded.

Trust 4.24 minutes 2002

10th London Australian Film Festival,The Barbican Centre, London UK 2004

Goethe Institute, Toronto, CANADA 2004

Best of EMAF, International Video-Tour including:

Eissner Museum, Milwaukee, USA 2004

UCLA, Milwaukee, USA 2004

Columbia College Chicago, USA 2004

Goethe-Institut, Chicago, USA 2004

Kino im Sprengel, Hannover, GERMANY 2004

Filmwerkstatt, Düsseldorf GERMANY 2004

Medienhaus, Hannover, GERMANY 2004

KoKi Freiburg, GERMANY 2004

Kino 46 / Kommunalkino Bremen, GERMANY 2004

Deutsches Filmuseum, Frankfurt, GERMANY 2004

Goethe-Institut Guadalajara, MEXICO 2004

Eschborn K, Eschborn, GERMANY 2004

Goethe Institut Toronto, CANADA 2004

Goethe Institut Warszawa, POLAND2004

Goethe-Institut London, UK, 2004

Annexia, Toulouse, FRANCE 2004

Goethe InstitutE, Bogota COLOMBIA 2004

The 1st Transmanchurian Video Festival, (touring) China 2003

INVIDEO Milan ITALY 2003

Seoul Net & Film Festival KOREA 2003

OZONE Australian experimental digital media art Centre Pompidou, Paris FRANCE 2003

Ok Video, Jakarta International Video Festival, Jakarta National Gallery Indonesia 2003

Catodigital Interactiva 01 Contemporary Art Museum Ateneo of Yucatán MEXICO 2003

Single Channel: Collaborating with the Moving Image, Blaffer gallery, the Art Museum

of the University of Houston, USA 2003

Single Channel Mezzanine Gallery San Francisco USA 2003

European Media Arts Festival Osnabruk, GERMANY 2003

European Media Arts Festival international tour 2003

WRO Globalica POLAND 2003

1st Changmai New Media Arts Festival THAILAND 2003

19th Dokumentarfilm- & Videofest Kassel GERMANY 2002

»backup2002_festival.new media in film Bauhaus University GERMANY 2002

V IDEO ZONE – The First International Video Art Biennial Tel Aviv, ISREAL 2002

False Emotions Installation exhibition Munich GERMANY 2002

Trust uses fragments of rich and painterly sensual imagery to weave a portrait of intimacy and emotion. The figures become small monsters as they slowly attempt to interact with each other. Their interaction is based around longing and confusion. Visualised thoughts float through the air, creating a densely textured aesthetic.